'Real Housewives': Jules Wainstein reveals recent bulimia slip

Jules Wainstein has found her voice.

Wednesday on The Real Housewives of New York, things came to a head for two cast members, Jules and the blunt Bethenny Frankel.

Thanks to some prior encouragement from Dorinda Medley, Jules called the cocktail mogul out for portraying her as unintelligent. "Your sense of humor is on other people's expense," she said. "My sense of humor is on my expense because I don't want to hurt people's feelings."

Jules also expressed concern that Bethenny and Carole Radziwill were talking about her eating disorder behind her back.

"My recovery is being open and honest," she told her fellow Housewives sans Luann de Lesseps. "I talk about it all the time, whether it's uncomfortable or not. Don't talk about me behind my back and discount the work that I've done. I may be very skinny, and you may not like how skinny I am, but I love my body."

Then she encouraged the women to voice their concerns to her face. "I'm not afraid because maybe you see something I don't see," she said. That's when Bethenny explained why she's yet to fully embrace her new castmate.

"I have been distant from you because I grew up with this my entire life from the day that I was born," Bethenny said. "(It's) a dishonest disease. It's about lying all the time and lying to everybody... I stay away because I don't want to get involved. I'm allowed to protect myself."

To the cameras, Bethenny confessed, "I've experienced firsthand someone with an eating disorder." She continued, "When Jules became friends with this group it's like a bank robber moving in with an FBI agent. It's reminding me of my mother. It was the worst, traumatic childhood because of this."

At the dinner table, Jules told the women about a recent bout with bulimia. "I have my slips all the time. I'm not gonna lie," she said. "Three days ago I threw up my food."

"Bulimia, it's with you forever," she confided in cameras. "It's a big part of my personality. If you make a mistake you can't be hard on yourself."

Near the end of their discussion, Bethenny told Jules she was upset with her. "I don't think you understand me at all."

"Put yourself in my shoes," Jules pleaded with her. "It's my life. I was gonna die, okay? I'm sensitive about it."

In an interview, Bethenny said, "I have tried to be as respectful as I possibly could about her eating disorder, particularly with how it relates to me. She just came at me, and I didn't like it, and now I'm shut off."

Later in the show, Bethenny appeared to avoid Jules aboard their party bus en route to Mohegan Sun, a casino resort in Connecticut. But within earshot, she discussed the issue with Dorinda to Jules' dismay.

In her Bravo blog, Jules elaborates on the "painful dinner" and "complete lack of empathy from Bethenny and Carole."

"If someone bore their soul to me like I did, I would have leapt across the table and given them a big hug," she writes. "Recovery from any illness is hard, and it's rarely a linear path. I thought I was ok. I wasn't ok and I admitted it, was dealing with it and moving forward again -- that's what people do. What people don't do is sit around judging and shaming a person in recovery and projecting their own issues onto them."

The Real Housewives of New York airs Wednesday at 9 p.m. ET on Bravo.