Nicki Minaj 'haunted' by early abortion

Nicki Minaj is always ready to flaunt her bod.

But now she's getting a little more personal about her emotions, both in her new 15-minute iTunes short film, The Pinkprint, and in the new issue of Rolling Stone.

She talks about her first love, an older man she dated while attending the famous LaGuardia performing arts high school.

At one point, she discovered she was pregnant.

"I thought I was going to die," she tells Rolling Stone. "I was a teenager. It was the hardest thing I'd ever gone through."

She ended up having an abortion, a decision that she says has "haunted me all my life," though she feels it was the right choice for her at the time.

"It'd be contradictory if I said I wasn't pro-choice. I wasn't ready. I didn't have anything to offer a child."

She first rapped about it on a mixtape track called Autobiography, she says, and she alludes to it in The Pinkprint.

"One of my goals was to give people a glimpse into my personal life, because it's something I've kept very private," she says of the film.